frick how am I supposed to pack clothes/toiletries and stuff for three months? what if I forget something I really want? this sucks, and I feel like I should have started this awhile ago. i need to go get a new digital camera

time for camp.
peace out everyone, i'll write occasionally

i freaking have a pretty nice sized crush on a boy that i've seen fairly regularly over the past few months. when i go to camp this will change, and i am very interested to see if i end the summer still with him on my mind.

when i say i have a crush, i don't mean crush in the normal sense in which i use the word.. where i am just infatuated with someone because they are cute or funny or something.. i mean that there is a boy i've carefully considered and concluded that i am attracted to them for reasons that go beyond the simple or surface.

it feels good.. sometimes seeing him is like a giant sigh of relief, because i remember that he exists and it makes me feel so much better about this depraved world.

my head hurts and i could probably use some coffee. sad that my solution for everything these days is coffee.

it is my birthday today.

is it strange that I am offended by someone's removing me as a facebook friend? sure, we are not really super good friends.. and while I think of them frequently, we rarely communicate.. and they are a bit socially awkward anyway. but still.

i feel really upset, like I am a terrible person or something.. like somehow that one random person unfriending me completely lowered my overall value as a person. internet social medias suck.

I wrote about it in a bit more detail @ http://www.stephanieorefice.com

so I said that I will post more. but for now, I'm getting ready to go up to eatonville for the beginning of beth and mitch's wedding celebrations.

Today - Beth's bachelorette tea.
Tomorrow - rehearsal/BBQ
Saturday - WEDDING

it's going to be so bittersweet.. I love the two of them so much, but now gretchen is in some capacity losing her sister. They do everything together. That's ok, now I can have gretchen all to myself :)

ok I will make it a goal to update this livejournal more regularly. sounds good.

dear summertime,

hurry up and get here.

love stephanie

man, I don't even really hang out here except to read a few communities.
check me out

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It is bittersweet when someone misses you more than they miss anyone else, especially if it is unexpected and reciprocated.

My friend Aaron sent me an e-mail seeing how I am. So I sent him a brief response, ending with "I miss you, but not anywhere near an unhealthy amount." His response was about how I am tied for Top 2 of people he misses the most from this area, behind his family.

So now I am thinking about how strange life is, with people walking in and out of our lives. There are people that I couldn't have DREAMED not talking to for a week two years ago.. and now they don't even respond to my "How are you?" messages on Facebook. People who I have shared secrets with, created memories, laughed with, cried with.. they were seasonal.

Even with my friends now, we have gone through seasons and I can't help but imagine that we will continue to have periods of summer followed by fall leading into winter, which melts into Spring, the promise of summer. It is probably healthiest this way, never too dependent on one person and always re-discovering loved ones.

I think back to Aaron. This entry was written about him, years ago. Since then, my infatuation has formed into a strong, burning love for him. Not in a romantic, whimsical sense but in a steadfast and secure sense. When I think of his silly antics and big smile, I am warmed from the inside out.

Our friendship was first based on teasing, second on sharing, and third on challenging.. ourselves, and each other. To know that I can always pull him up in my mind and think so fondly of him is a great, comforting thing. Knowing it is reciprocated is indescribable.

How blessed am I, to have so many friends from so many places pursuing so many things? Very.

I am so tired all of the time. There is seriously never a moment when I'm not completely exhausted.

and it's snowing, frick.

i have been working lots and its exhausted me, but thats ok. one day i will wake up and be like crap i have $300 more dollars than i usually do and i'll feel totally bank.

this snow storm sucks, i hate being stuck at home. but i can get some things accomplished. like posting a livejournal entry and making messes all over the house. actually, i'm going to write a song. i am determined to.

i guess i will write more later.

it has been FOREVER since i've been on livejournal.. work is so busy, i basically work 8 - 10:30 every day!! booo. when it is new year time i will come back :)

I know exactly where we headed
Science won't give God any credit
the church says as long as the prophet said it
it's good enough for the church to be fed it

There's 4,000 different interpretations
we disagree from Genesis to Revelations
we need to get to the core of the situation
stop bitchin' 'bout same sex relations

Chapel says it's not profit
except if the prophet wants a Benz he goes and cops it
Growing up wealth was never topic
my daddy never had bread up in his pocket

My tax dollars only teach abstinence
Except half the girls I grew up with got pregnant
Instead of scholarships they got carriages
Instead of chasing their dreams they chase marriages

Martin Luther King had a vision
so this must be a blind generation
seems we've become a nation
manipulated by the congregation

We will never find racial unity
unless we find equal opportunity
I will never ask for immunity
cause I was born and raised in a caucasian community

The less fortunate are run
by their desires for their poisons
meth, crack and heroin
are the kings of the underprivileged kingdom

there's a phantom epidemic in our nation
and this phantom epidemic's education
entertainment and recreation
they take priority over shaping generations

And what about the media?
quit believing everything that they feeding ya
Their fueled by political agenda;
you're swayed by political vendettas

And why is my generation passive?
We're trapped by our thoughts and our habits
the system is holding us captive
when the fire comes we all run for the exits

and I am just a son of a legitimate
I'm just another bitch with an instrument
whoring out my personal opinions
whoring out my personal convictions

and yes, I believe that the church is in crisis
and yes, I believe everybody's got their vices
but the crisis that provoked me to write this
is I know the good I should do, but I always do the opposite.

So I should be the last to speak.

-Allen Stone

today melissa, michele & i went to the mall.. michele needed a dress for a wedding she's going to this weekend. unfortunately i had to leave before she got it :( but hopefully she got one and will bring it to work tomorrow.

but i saw the CUTEST shirt EVER. EVERRRR. i found it online.. at the store, they had it paired with a gray cardigan and seriously i just stood there and loved it so much!! here's the shirt:




ok bedtime!

well i thought i had an extra lunch at work to eat, but apparently i do not. so no lunch for me today :( and i am even really hungry!! lame. now i can't wait to get home to get something to eat.

i sold a few things on ebay and i took too long to wait to transfer the money and so now i won't get it until the end of the week. but i applied for the paypal debit card so hopefully it will be easier.

well next week i am going to california to see davíd because i love him so. and brandon will be there, which is equally as awesome.

bee is going to help me make a blog about ugly clothes. so i will work on that a lot. we already have a few things. any strong opinions towards really ugly articles of clothing, or the way clothing is worn?